Yo! Finally back to blogging. This could be mt last time blogging, for now. Hope I can resist. So we got back ALL our results already for mid terms. In fact, we got to know our positions in class already. I'm quite satisfied with my marks except for the 3 Science subjects & add maths. Dropped a lot in these few subjects. The positions in class is bad. Like really bad. I really can't imagine what I got. I remember I used to get top 15 or at least top 20 for all my exams. But this year is just..terrible. I can't imagine what is Mr.Lau gonna talk bout me on open day. No idea when yet but I know it's soon.. :/ I need to change, man. Like seriously. My attitude towards studies is bad. Even I myself can't stand myself sometimes. So we were talking bout our childhood times in class yesterday. Memories :) we couldn't stop laughing at our childhood times. We were so lame back then but we were all very happy. We were all carefree. We had nothing to worry about, unlike now. Talking back bout it, I really miss it. I'm happy that me & some of my friends are still in the same class til now. Since standard 1. 10 years of being in the same school & same class. You can barely get all these relationships with your friends. Some are either in different class or different class. I'm really glad to have these friends with me when I'm up & down. I can't believe me without them. I can't believe all of us graduating next year & go with our own paths. Ahhh! 4th Unit Rangers got 3rd for marching competition on Sports Day. It was really unpredictable. We started practicing only on Tuesday & tada! We made it. We finished everything just in 3 days time & yet we got 3rd. It was far more than all of us expected.

GO 4TH UNIT RANGERS! <3 

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So mid terms is officially over! Booyah! :D so much happened in a day. Let's start off with this morning. As usual, sat in a group & talked but today was kinda different as Diane didn't come join us. Wthell. People changed. She used to be damn close to us & now no more. Whatever. Went to the volleyball court as usual for morning assembly but today was some kind of short celebration for Teacher's Day. Talked & talked non-stop throughout the whole thing, as usual heh :) went back to class after assembly. Chit-chatted with Ruba & Yeeng & it's time for Civic paper already. It was indeed an easy paper. Wait, it IS always easy. So anyways, after the paper we were just partying. Chit-chatting, laughing around & all. It was really a good day. Ahh I've thought of what I'm supposed to do. Move on! Like what Ruba said, move on. He doesn't even bother then why am I still hanging on here? No point. Anyways, thanks a heap, Ruba :D love you always for all the advice. We were talking talking & talking till we had to do some gotong-royong before the 2 weeks of holidays start. We didn't even do ahah. Went down to sudut to meet up with Vindeya & starting talking & gossiping :) 

SO THE 2 WEEKS HOLIDAYS ARE FINALLY HERE! CHEERSSSS :D  I'm gonna fill up my schedule with full of activities :) pedicure & manicure with the girls tomorrow at Kuku Chyau Spa. (actually it's just Kuku Spa but me & Ruba added in the Chyau there). Outing with the other group of best friends on Sunday at AEON. Finally, out with the friends at AEON & not Jusco :) gonna go shopping with Yeeng at Cotton On. Civic folio on the same day. Hmm what else? Outing with the girls at JJ the following day or week. & also the guys, of course :) & the rest of the days I'm just gonna sit at home & catch up with the movies I've missed out due to mid terms. & maybe hanging out with Wei Seng since I won't be seeing him that much already. :/ so that's all for today. More to come in this 2 weeks of holidays :) 

Back once again.

Hey peeps, I'm back once again. Abandoned my blog for months lol. So much happened in this few months or in this one month or whatsoever. Anyways, my mid terms just finished. Well, not officially but considered. Last paper tomorrow; Civics. I just don't know why can't they put in on Wednesday to replace the Ujian Kendiri instead of having it on Friday. The only paper for tomorrow. Gahh, but it has its advantage. At least we don't need to get back our add maths paper. Gosh, the fear of getting results. Even though exam has finished but we still have results. I really really hope that the teachers will only give back our papers after the holidays. I want a nice holiday pls. Oh yeah, according to my BM teacher, it seems that there are people in my class who failed their BM paper. You serious? I didn't know you could fail BM THAT easy D: I'm getting scared. I might be one of them. I hope not. I thought I did very badly in my previous monthly test but I think this is worse. I did not study for monthly test but my results were quite okay. I studied for mid terms. Like every single night without fail. Stayed up some more. & turned out the papers were freaking tough. Like shit. What's done is done. No point regretting. I will study earlier next time. & this is for real.

As I mentioned just now, a lot happened. From being close to strangers now. Well, our promise to each other was we will remain as best friends even if we break up. But this doesn't seem to be working on us. 1st of all, I'm still hanging on there. I still can't accept the fact that this happened to me. Oh well, maybe I took things for granted. Lesson learnt. 2nd of all, you're not even talking. You said we will remain as best friends but we are not even talking. You don't even wanna start a conversation. Even if I start off with a conversation first, you won't even reply me :( gahhh I'm so confused. I tried moving on but it doesn't work. I keep telling myself that I have to move on like how I did few years ago, but I can't. This is killing me. You told me time will heal. Will it really heal? Maybe it would for a moment. But whenever I think all the things that we've done in this four months I can't. I always break down whenever I think of them. All the memories we've had together. But well, everything is over. I just gotta accept the fact & try not to text you. I still love you. But do you? No, you don't. I shall let fate decide. If we are meant to be together, God will bring us together. If we don't, we'll go on out separate ways. God has better plans for me. For you.

So anyways, I'm currently playing the piano for Sunday's worship team. All cause of that bloody hell THONG WEI SENG! Yes, he got a scholarship to further his English studies in Arican/Erican College & he's only form5! He stopped going to church already. Kind of miss him. A best friend of mine who is always here for me no matter how bad I treat him. Honestly, he's one of my best guy friends. He's here for me no matter what. When I'm done he'll tell me lame but funny jokes. When I'm happy, we spend our time together painting each other's nails. No, he's not gay. Haha, just for the sake of fun. He's like an older brother to me. & of course he treats me like a younger sister too. Nothing much. I will seriously miss him a lot. OH OH SO ANYWAYS, I drove the other day! :D yes, I DROVE THE OTHER DAY. I DROVE HIS FREAKING VIOS THE OTHER DAY. Hahaha I'm so happy :) went to church to practice piano with others & he drove me to Mcd. Well, firstly he drove me to Mcd. I went to get ice cream & he went to get nuggets. He was supposed to send me back home but instead, I drove back home. Of course with him accompanying me. Thank god there wasn't any road blocks that day or else I'll die lol. So before that he taught me how to drive outside Mcd lmao. Bahahahahah I'm so happy that I was the first one who drove his car. Obviously other than his parents. See how important is this guy in my life even though he's not my boyf. I'm not saying that he treats me better than him. They are just equal. It's just that this is the only guy that will never walk out of my life no matter how bad I treat him, sometimes. He's just here for me, 24/7. He just bears with me every single time I throw tantrum lol. If I was given a chance to love him back, I would. This is my biggest mistake ever. Other than losing my ex. If only. Till now, I still love my ex a lot. Yes, I admit sometimes when I go out with him I still have a slight feeling for him, but no, I don't love him. I only love my ex, still.

P/S: If only you knew how much I still love you. 

Backkk! :)

Finally back to blogging after sooo long :) been really busy with studies & curriculum activities. Really have to gear up in my studies. Being in Kekwa is definitely not as easy as i thought it was. Freaking stress. March exam is over. Thought I could rejoice but nah, results are slowly killing me. Got to know our position is class already. & I swear this is the worst exam I've ever had. Never done this bad before. Terrible. Omgg, really have to gear up. This is what I always say but I always end up studying last minute duhhh. Anyways, yesterday was SMC IU Day 2012. The day that most of us had been waiting for. Was part of the committee members this year. Our theme this year was 'Passage To India.' To be honest, we thought we couldn't make it for this year's IU cause of all the last minute preps. But it turned out okay. In fact, it was the best IU Day that I've ever had. It was beyond awesome :) All the hard work paid off. Thank you Lord. Saw all the positive feedbacks from other interactors. Really proud of MC interactors :) 

So this is gonna be the 4th month of us being together. Fast huh? Yeah, pretty fast. Never thought we could last this long :D really very very happy! Birthday coming soon. (mine I mean) hehe. The boyf actually asked me what I want for my birthday & surprisingly I told him I don't want anything. WOW THIS IS SO NOT ME MAN! Usually if anyone asks me what I want for my birthday I will just tell them what I want but I didn't request anything from him haha. Anyways, I would be happy enough to spend a few hours with him on my big day :)WOW THIS IS REALLY FAST. Can't believe I'll be officially 16 in 5 days time. 5 more days to see him. Excited. Didn't see him for like what? More than 1 week :( miss him so much. It feels like a year. Okay, you might think that I'm exaggerating but I'm serious okay :( 

Signing off now. P/S: I'm actually hoping for smtg special on my birthday ;) 

It's a Saturday & I'm rotting at home :/ sitting on the bed doing nothing other than blogging & waiting for you text . Hmm . Actually I do have smtg to do . MY HOMEWORK . God , never ending homework . All untouched . I think I better do it tomorrow especially Sejarah & Bm or else that pregnant will make me stand AGAIN . Freaking hate her . Just go & give birth please . Grrr . So anyways , woke up kinda early this morning to attend the 1st Rangers meeting . Was halfway eating & I realized that I was gonna be late for meeting . Hmm , I think I took quite a long time to shower :/ reached school at 0830 sharp & omgg , everyone was already like sitting in the primary hall & most of the teachers were already there . So I guess I was pretty late . I thought it was gonna be nice & fun as it was the first meeting . But guess what ! Pn. Azlah gave us some loooonnnnggggg brief about being a ranger . Her so-called ' short ' brief . Pffttt . So after all the briefings , we were asked to pick two guides / two recruits & teach them what she's taught us just now :O honestly , I wasn't really paying attention to her when she was talking so I was kinda lost . Picked two recruits & I swear I could die explaining the logs to them . 1st; they're so quiet . Very very quite . & they barely respond to you when you ask them smtg . Dislike this kind of people . I feel like I'm talking to a wall or smtg .  I talk to my dog better haha . So anyways , thank God I was with them for only like what ? 10 minutes ? Hehe . We barely did anything in school today . Well , for those who are not going to MGS Gathering & I'm one of them . The rest were having gathering prep while we just sat at the art gallery & laughed out loud like no one's business . Still , it was boring like hell , with the new teacher advisors . Ughh . So after meeting , me & Jia Shing walked ALL THE WAY to Chatime :) but he wasn't there yet la :( it wasn't his working hour yet so yealaa :/ hmm okay . Next time I shall find a better timing to go there WITHOUT Chan . She's a total spoiler :P haha . You .... know what . We haven't been talking since last last week . & I miss him a lot . A LOT . Never missed someone this much before . Not even my parents :P & uhh , we barely even chat on Whatsapp . The timing is just not right ! :( when I come back from school he's working . When he finish working I will be already feeling sleepy & doze off . See what I mean :/ not his fault anyway . I always promise him that I will stay up to accompany him but I always end up falling asleep without telling him . Hmm I felt really bad when he told me this yesterday . SO TONIGHT I SHALL TRY TO STAY UP LATE NO MATTER WHAT . I DON'T CARE IF I HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY TOMORROW TO GO TO CHURCH OR WHATSOEVER . I WILL . But in one condition , DO NOT LYE ON MY BED CAUSE FOR SURE I WILL FALL ASLEEP . Hahaha weird , I know . Or maybe not ? Okay , done crapping .

So .... Valentine's Day is next next week ? Omggg this is sooo fast . I still have no idea what should I make him . Smtg handmade ? :) feel like trying . Sister's giving me sorts of idea which don't make sense at all . As usual . & Valentine's Day is on a Tuesday like wthell ! Why not Thursday or weekends ? :/ the government should make Valentine's Day a public holiday ! 

Hehehe going out with him next Thursday after school . I hope there's no change of plans . Hope he can really make it for me , at least for a day . 

So school's starting tomorrow . Gonna be a busy month for most of us . Gathering & sports practice . My homeworks are undone . Or I shall say it untouched , except for Add Maths . Honestly , that's the only homework I will do . It's not that I like Add Maths , it's because of the teacher who's teaching Add Maths . Fierce :( scary . We will never dare to make noise when we know she's gonna come in our class . Hehe . MGS Gathering is on the 25th of February . I'm somehow scared for it cause we are against SMI . D: so anyways , I think I'm auditioning for marching competition tomorrow ? Or maybe other days ? Nervous . Did not march for almost half a year . I wonder if I still know the basic ones . I hope I do but I'm pretty sure that I've already forgotten how to belok . I mean , I can never belok perfectly :( so yeah , whatever . Gonna try my best ! Sports practice is gonna start on the 9th of February . 2nd week of February . :( supposed to burn my fats during CNY but I did not . Who would go for gym or jogging during CNY ? Maybe some athletic people will but not me . All I did was eat & eat & eat even more ! School's starting tomorrow & I'm very sure that I will not go jogging . FOR SURE . So tell me , how am I gonna run for sports practice ? :( anyways , I'm NOT planning to run for this year . Wanna take a break . Been running for the school for 2 years ? Seems so short but trust me , IT IS VERY TIRING , especially when you're against some good athletes like Zong Lin ? & especially when you have to skip class just to practice for running . I like to skip class but not for all these :P & what else ? Hmm . Oh , Hilda just messaged me & asked me to think bout smtg for IU Day this year . It's somewhere in April but I think it's quite early to think now :O okay , maybe I'm just too lazy to think .  

Leehom's concert on the 3rd of March . Dammit ! It's so near to my exam . I mean , it's really very very near to my monthly exam . D: gonna miss out his concert AGAIN . Been waiting for him to held a concert for 1 year plus . Now he's having one but I can't make it . Aihhh . To those who are going , I don't like y'all :( wonder when is he gonna have another concert . So anyways , Valentine's Day is near ! It's 29th today & a few more days to February . Should I be happy that Valentine's Day is near ? I don't know . Don't even know what will happen on that day . Shall leave it to God . 

Hehehe , I think I'm asking too much but I want a Burberry perfume for either my 2nd monthsary OR Valentine's Day . * HINTHINTHINT * 

Ciao . Goodnight . Hope I don't die tomorrow :P 

Saturday ! :D

I suddenly have the urge to blog at this hour . It's 12 now . Approximately 1 & a half hours more til he's free to chat with me . ANYWAY , straight to the point . 

Woke up at 10.15 this morning by a phone call from my Chemistry tuition teacher saying that I have tuition at 10.30 later . ZOMG ! Was rushing like hell to go for tuition but I was still late for tuition . Very late lol . Felt so awkward walking into the class when he was teaching . Skipped my breakfast so I was pretty hungry til I didn't really have the mood to listen to him :( so while I was having tuition , Chan called me & asked me out for lunch later at 2 at Berlins :) it was really a last minute plan . After all the naggings from mom , finally she allowed me to go but in one condition , NO DRINKING . Drinking as in drinking alcoholic drinks but anyways , I did so ... I'm sorry , mom . Got back from tuition at around 1.45 & quickly rushed there . Reached there quite late & I thought I was the late one but see see , she was the late one -.- waited for her for like 10 minutes . IT IS VERY LONG WHEN YOU GET NAGGINGS & LECTURES FROM YOUR MOM IN THE CAR . Uhh noi ying ! So anyways , she reached Berlins at 2.30 & we quickly went to sit down & ordered our food cause we did not have breakfast :( sooo , we started our private convo . Yes , very private . Only between both of us :) after all the eating & drinking & talking , we wanted to get Chatime but unfortunately it was really packed . Packed as in the queue was freaking long . So forget bout it . Headed to Parade after that . Yep , we walked there :) we were actually planning to ' shop ' there but Parade was very packed as well . Oh thank God we did not plan to go to Jusco or else we will really regret . Went to Starbucks to get mineral water & ice lemon tea . Oh , did I mention that I got a terrible headache after drinking 2 cocktails ? Yes , I did . So I had a terrible headache & gastric but no , I WASN'T DRUNK . I STILL WALKED IN A STRAIGHT LINE HEH :) finished the whole bottle of mineral water in Parade . Wow ! OH OH OH ! You know when I was walking to Parade , I passed by Healy Mac's . The place where my boyf is currently working at ! :D  passed by there & the 1st two people I saw was Karti & Julian . Turned & waved at Karti & I thought I could see the boyf but too bad , I couldn't . :( after the so-called shopping in Parade , we headed back to Greentown . We were planning to sit at Chatime & chill but last minute plan again heh :) we ended up sitting at Healy Mac's . Gosh , I was so shy lol ! I mean , Chan kept on calling Harold to come to our place wts . & I didn't dare to look up cause I know I would definitely blush , A LOT . So yes . But at the end I looked up cause I couldn't resist looking down ALL THE TIME . Plus , I was having headache so I guess it's not good to look down all the time . So I finally looked up & I SAW HIM OMG ! So after all these Chan's grandma was here to fetch us back already :( that was fast man . 

Anyways , I really had fun today . Minus the headache & gastric . Though I only got to see him for a few minutes , or maybe only for a few seconds , but I'm satisfied & happy . Better than nothing :) so now there's like 1 more hour to go . I shall wait for him patiently . 

Ciao . Goodnight .