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So mid terms is officially over! Booyah! :D so much happened in a day. Let's start off with this morning. As usual, sat in a group & talked but today was kinda different as Diane didn't come join us. Wthell. People changed. She used to be damn close to us & now no more. Whatever. Went to the volleyball court as usual for morning assembly but today was some kind of short celebration for Teacher's Day. Talked & talked non-stop throughout the whole thing, as usual heh :) went back to class after assembly. Chit-chatted with Ruba & Yeeng & it's time for Civic paper already. It was indeed an easy paper. Wait, it IS always easy. So anyways, after the paper we were just partying. Chit-chatting, laughing around & all. It was really a good day. Ahh I've thought of what I'm supposed to do. Move on! Like what Ruba said, move on. He doesn't even bother then why am I still hanging on here? No point. Anyways, thanks a heap, Ruba :D love you always for all the advice. We were talking talking & talking till we had to do some gotong-royong before the 2 weeks of holidays start. We didn't even do ahah. Went down to sudut to meet up with Vindeya & starting talking & gossiping :) 

SO THE 2 WEEKS HOLIDAYS ARE FINALLY HERE! CHEERSSSS :D  I'm gonna fill up my schedule with full of activities :) pedicure & manicure with the girls tomorrow at Kuku Chyau Spa. (actually it's just Kuku Spa but me & Ruba added in the Chyau there). Outing with the other group of best friends on Sunday at AEON. Finally, out with the friends at AEON & not Jusco :) gonna go shopping with Yeeng at Cotton On. Civic folio on the same day. Hmm what else? Outing with the girls at JJ the following day or week. & also the guys, of course :) & the rest of the days I'm just gonna sit at home & catch up with the movies I've missed out due to mid terms. & maybe hanging out with Wei Seng since I won't be seeing him that much already. :/ so that's all for today. More to come in this 2 weeks of holidays :) 

Back once again.

Hey peeps, I'm back once again. Abandoned my blog for months lol. So much happened in this few months or in this one month or whatsoever. Anyways, my mid terms just finished. Well, not officially but considered. Last paper tomorrow; Civics. I just don't know why can't they put in on Wednesday to replace the Ujian Kendiri instead of having it on Friday. The only paper for tomorrow. Gahh, but it has its advantage. At least we don't need to get back our add maths paper. Gosh, the fear of getting results. Even though exam has finished but we still have results. I really really hope that the teachers will only give back our papers after the holidays. I want a nice holiday pls. Oh yeah, according to my BM teacher, it seems that there are people in my class who failed their BM paper. You serious? I didn't know you could fail BM THAT easy D: I'm getting scared. I might be one of them. I hope not. I thought I did very badly in my previous monthly test but I think this is worse. I did not study for monthly test but my results were quite okay. I studied for mid terms. Like every single night without fail. Stayed up some more. & turned out the papers were freaking tough. Like shit. What's done is done. No point regretting. I will study earlier next time. & this is for real.

As I mentioned just now, a lot happened. From being close to strangers now. Well, our promise to each other was we will remain as best friends even if we break up. But this doesn't seem to be working on us. 1st of all, I'm still hanging on there. I still can't accept the fact that this happened to me. Oh well, maybe I took things for granted. Lesson learnt. 2nd of all, you're not even talking. You said we will remain as best friends but we are not even talking. You don't even wanna start a conversation. Even if I start off with a conversation first, you won't even reply me :( gahhh I'm so confused. I tried moving on but it doesn't work. I keep telling myself that I have to move on like how I did few years ago, but I can't. This is killing me. You told me time will heal. Will it really heal? Maybe it would for a moment. But whenever I think all the things that we've done in this four months I can't. I always break down whenever I think of them. All the memories we've had together. But well, everything is over. I just gotta accept the fact & try not to text you. I still love you. But do you? No, you don't. I shall let fate decide. If we are meant to be together, God will bring us together. If we don't, we'll go on out separate ways. God has better plans for me. For you.

So anyways, I'm currently playing the piano for Sunday's worship team. All cause of that bloody hell THONG WEI SENG! Yes, he got a scholarship to further his English studies in Arican/Erican College & he's only form5! He stopped going to church already. Kind of miss him. A best friend of mine who is always here for me no matter how bad I treat him. Honestly, he's one of my best guy friends. He's here for me no matter what. When I'm done he'll tell me lame but funny jokes. When I'm happy, we spend our time together painting each other's nails. No, he's not gay. Haha, just for the sake of fun. He's like an older brother to me. & of course he treats me like a younger sister too. Nothing much. I will seriously miss him a lot. OH OH SO ANYWAYS, I drove the other day! :D yes, I DROVE THE OTHER DAY. I DROVE HIS FREAKING VIOS THE OTHER DAY. Hahaha I'm so happy :) went to church to practice piano with others & he drove me to Mcd. Well, firstly he drove me to Mcd. I went to get ice cream & he went to get nuggets. He was supposed to send me back home but instead, I drove back home. Of course with him accompanying me. Thank god there wasn't any road blocks that day or else I'll die lol. So before that he taught me how to drive outside Mcd lmao. Bahahahahah I'm so happy that I was the first one who drove his car. Obviously other than his parents. See how important is this guy in my life even though he's not my boyf. I'm not saying that he treats me better than him. They are just equal. It's just that this is the only guy that will never walk out of my life no matter how bad I treat him, sometimes. He's just here for me, 24/7. He just bears with me every single time I throw tantrum lol. If I was given a chance to love him back, I would. This is my biggest mistake ever. Other than losing my ex. If only. Till now, I still love my ex a lot. Yes, I admit sometimes when I go out with him I still have a slight feeling for him, but no, I don't love him. I only love my ex, still.

P/S: If only you knew how much I still love you.